Yesterday, I talked about how words can act as weapons when a person uses them against us. I do want to talk about Step 9 and how it can relate to making amends, forgiving others, and possibly being forgiven by them, but today, I want to look at how it is for us when we use words as weapons against ourselves. Whoa, dude, that's deep. Just think, if we talked to others as we talked negatively to ourselves, we WOULDN'T have any friends or loved ones at all. Toxicity is horrendous, but when it's directed at ourselves??? Holy cow. We can be our own worst enemy. For the longest time, I would put myself down, make disparaging comments about myself, hate on myself so that way no one, NO ONE, could say something that would cut like a knife or say something worse. And I wondered why I didn't like myself.....
Don't get me wrong, self-deprecation is not a bad thing. We should all be able to laugh at ourselves, not take ourselves too seriously. BUT and that's a big BUT, when we do it as an attack on ourselves when it goes too far, it's a form of self-loathing, even self-hatred. That's what messes us up! Self sabatoging creates problems in daily life and interferes with long-standing goals. When you start to belittle yourself, self-doubt will creep in. Not "might" creep in, it WILL CREEP IN! So if you have goals in place that you want to succeed at, but you tell yourself "I really don't deserve to achieve them", you are doubting your self.
To Thine Own Self be True.
Do you believe that a higher power, divine omnipotent being, God, life force, created you? Or are you here just because of your parents? Where did your parents come from? Grandparents...Great-grandparents, I could keep going, but I won't! I will state that I believe there is something in the universe greater than human beings that created us. AND if that's the case, why would it create junk? And another thing that keeps me up at night, are we human beings living a spiritual existence, or are we spiritual beings living a human existence?
If that is the case, then how can we put ourselves down when something greater than us has created us for good? Dr. Wayne Dyer's book, The Power of Intention, describes it as riding on a subway car or a streetcar. We're all riding along together, but not all of us are holding onto the strap(life force) and have become disconnected from our fellows. It IS up to us to decide to reach out, grab on, and reconnect with mankind.
How will you reconnect to the power of intention that has formed you? Are we not all "fearfully and wonderfully made"?
Until we meet again. Peace and blessings.